Today it's overcast and quite a bit cooler than it was earlier this week, when Guy and I both sunburned (mom guilt).
Wednesday night we went to bed after 1 a.m. and Thursday night I kindly stayed up late with a sick husband. Then I got up in the middle of the night twice dry heaving. Still felt sick this morning. (stupid Taco Bell, serves me right I suppose)
I'm having a hard time seeing past the dishes, the no energy, the no cheese (I never realized how many of our meals involve cheese), and the amount of energy it takes to keep Guy occupied without using a TV or computer screen. And we didn't get the Community Aide position. Which is just fine, I understand, but I'm feeling a little down because now I need to try to find a way to trim our budget in an effort to keep the student loans to a minimum. Life feels so expensive when you're not earning any money. Never mind that I've found ways to make a little extra here and there, I feel so guilty for wanting to buy something I'll enjoy with it instead of, you know, diapers.
But I got a 2-hour nap this morning. Josh kindly made pancakes for Guy. Friends invited us over for a barbecue tonight. We are blessed beyond measure.
I just can't get past the grayscale.
3 comments:
(hugs) If I was with you we'd go for a walk/jog and have a grand old time.
Sleep is the ticket. . . You'll be yourself tomorrow.
I hear you all the way... Good luck. Sometimes I just feel better knowing I'm not the only one.
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